Tomorrow.

I've been in a funk recently. Can recently also mean for a really long time? It just sounds better. I find it hard to get on and do things, am much 'happier' (but not really happier) when I am sitting at home doing very little that involves movement. It's not great. Not how I want to live, but it is how I am living most of the time.

One step to change this I decided on before Christmas - for 6 months (so till the end of June, I guess. Or beginning? Patrick would know, I suck at math) I have decided not to be the one to turn on the TV. This includes anything that could be watched except for the odd short YouTube clip that someone posts on Facebook. So far, I have only been weak once, and then only got through half of what I was cheating with before the guilt made me turn it off. There are a few things that help keep this realistic: if I were to get really sick, then I could watch TV, if Patrick wants to watch something, then I can watch with him. This means that it is more of a conscious watching together and not some brainless activity. In order for me to have things that I can do instead, I decided to read a book a week, which so far is also going well.

However, it isn't quite having the effect I wanted. I am still in my funk. (Ok, ok. Let's call a spade a spade. Laziness.) And it is proving extremely hard to master. So. As of tomorrow morning I will be making a renewed effort at getting up earlier so that I can do my sports in the morning, and re-practicing self-discipline. I have a feeling this will be a life-long battle but I am glad I know that it is one that I will win eventually.

So tomorrow I will do the laundry, get church ready, clean the hall and my house, cook delicious food and do Jillian and lots more. One step at a time.

And my motto will be borrowed from Goethe: What is not started today, is never finished tomorrow.